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Bantry Bay

ALL OF IRELAND’S AMBIGUOUS AIRS

For Sarah Selzer



The arithmetic suggests you might have been

conceived on the night ferry to Dublin.

That, with a drive across the republic

in August, and a week of spuds and Guinness,

of Sweet Afton’s and of Passing Clouds,

of fuchsias, escaped from some gentry’s garden,

purpling wild and red down narrow lanes

where family men fought a ragged war,

rocks at Hell’s Mouth, white and bleached as bones,

the lullaby lapping of Bantry Bay,

and sailing home across a violent sea

to our newly decorated, newly

furnished south-facing flat at the top

of an old house almost as tall as its trees,

may explain your sureness with words and people,

with colours, and textures, and keepsakes,

your sense of irony, of justice,

of the absurd, and your certainty

that what matters most is love and kindness.

AT THE WORLD’S EDGE

A year after we honeymooned by the shores

of Bantry Bay opposite Whiddy Island –

low lying, with gently rolling hills –

construction began on the island

of an international oil terminal,

big enough to permit the largest tankers

to unload straight from the Persian Gulf.

The bay was ideal – a deep, sheltered channel,

far away from crowded shipping lanes,

and Bantry town’s population was small.

In ’79 an ultra-large tanker

exploded at the jetty killing scores.

The terminal was closed permanently.

Our memories of oyster-catchers

in the estuary were replaced with

the heavy wash of shipping storeys high,

then sudden, volcanic conflagration,

and the bay darkening with flotsam.

The nearby village of Kealkill was the site

of the Civil War’s first fatalities,

two IRA Volunteers from Bantry.

In the ’90s, the forestry commission,

as elsewhere throughout the republic,

on peat land and once cultivated fields,

planted fast growing Sitka spruce – native

to Alaska, sacred for the Haida,

a First Nation coastal tribe of fishers.

One of the residents of Kealkill

objected to the darkness and the dankness

the spruce created, a perpetual gloom

that killed the bilberries that had been

abundant. Every so often, for

twenty years, she felled a tree, and scattered seeds: 

birch, hazel, oak, alder, crab apple, rowan.

‘As time went on,’ she said at her trial, ‘I got

bolder’. The Garda had heard the chainsaw,

and arrested her, covered in sawdust.

On Whiddy Island there are the remains

of the blackened oil jetty, and, by the shore,

overgrown with hawthorn and gorse,

the stone ruins of curing sheds for pressing

shoals of pilchards caught off the coast, in most years,

for export to France, Spain and Italy –

a trade abandoned for easier pickings.

Our bedroom overlooked the rich, deep waters.

Above the bed was a garish print

of the revelation of the Sacred Heart.

‘Strange to be there beginning something new…

Strange to go there, for what might come’,

I wrote, more than fifty years ago.

But what do young men know, surprised

by death’s ubiquity? We had driven,

one benign August day, across Ireland,

asking a drunk for the way out of Dublin,

passing galloping horses on the Curragh,

later fallen towers, and barefoot children,

and dry-stone walls festooned with fuchsia  –

arriving in the early evening,

with the bay still as glass.

GOLDEN

As luck would have it, we were married this day

exactly half a century ago.

We holiday with our small family

to avoid the inevitable party

and announce our golden wedding to friends

via Facebook – and receive some humbling

encouragements that speak not simply

of being there like pebbles as the tide

ebbs and flows but of inspiration.

 

We chose to honeymoon by Bantry Bay.

Ireland spoke of mystery and romance –

to us ignorant of its privations.

As we drove through the town that August Sunday,

the sun lowering over the Atlantic,

some church festival was finishing.

A wedding guest had hidden confetti

in our suitcase so, as you unpacked our clothes

for the first time, gaudy paper disks fluttered

over the bed beneath The Sacred Heart.

Our week was ended with upset stomachs.

We had had lunch – potatoes, carrots, bacon –

in a dark panelled restaurant in Cork,

surrounded by unsmiling nuns and priests.

We were infidels in Calvary land.

 

On the return ferry, to save money,

we spent the night in armchairs in the bar.

Before midnight a gale blew up that rolled us

forty five degrees starboard to port and back.

We could see ships nearby in Liverpool Bay

bucking as in a cartoon of a tempest.

Behind the bar’s locked grills, glasses and bottles

shattered. Bench seats along the saloon’s sides

broke free and two lines of strangers grinning

with fear briefly curtsied to each other.

 

‘Strange to be there, beginning something new,’

I wrote that autumn. ‘Strange to go there,

hoping for what might come.’ The narrow fields

and lanes seemed untouched since the Great Hunger –

yet the dry stone walls were festooned for miles

with wild fuchsia and honeysuckle. Now

it seems as if we had known that we would learn there

how to weather sickness, storms – and bask in joy.